jUwaSo, well, I decided to send a postcard to one of my favorite people: Chinen Yuri of Hey! Say! JUMP. A fellow fan inspired me 🙂 Well, actually this is not the first time I sent a postcard to a celebrity. Previously I also sent a postcard to Lee Dong Wook, my favorite Korean actor.
Actually I was confused. Initially, I planned to write a letter (typed, definitely, ‘cause I can’t write Kanji. LoL), but then I was thinking, “Ah, I’ll never be able to keep it short. I’ll end up writing a very long letter and maybe he doesn’t want to read long letters from fans.” So I thought that maybe I can just write a postcard. I doubt he will read my long letter anyway. Even this short postcard, I’m not sure he’ll read it ’cause mostly it’s in English, and I just don’t know how to write it properly in Japanese.
But, well, since I’m currently living in Arizona, USA, of course, I want to send an Arizonan postcard, but then I realized that I didn’t have many left. So I didn’t have a lot of choices. But guess what? I finally chose this one postcard with Gambel’s Quail pic, and when I browsed, I was happy that I could pick this postcard. It was said that Gambel’s Quail is the small and gorgeous bird in the quail family (Chinen is gorgeous and “small” too! He’s still taller than me, though. Haha). I also found that “When adults pair up and become a mated pair, it is not just for a single breeding season – these birds mate for life. They remain monogamous till death do them part. Both adults perform all parenting duties equally. Both select nesting sites, incubate eggs and, together, teach their young how to be quail.” (wildbirdsonline.com › blogs › news › gambels-quail-2, 2016). Wow, I didn’t know this, but I love this fact. And, well, I don’t know if Chinen will ever get married or what kind of person he’ll marry later, but I can see this quality in him. Well, I’m hoping and praying for him. I know people always say that he’s spoiled, cute, and all, but I believe that he’s a responsible person and willing to learn. Yeah, I trust him that much. Love is blinding, huh? 🙈🥰✌ And, oh, there are also cactus flowers in the postcard, isn’t it like destiny? Chinen’s mascot, Sabonen, is a cactus, with a flower on the head! Gosh, I know it’s a coincidence, but allow me to fangirl and say that it’s fate ^^
Anyway, I decided to write him the poem that I originally wrote on my Twitter fangirling account. Well, I put my real name in the postcard, though, because I’ve got to take some credit for these cheesy words of mine 😜🙈✌ And, I choose these words carefully because I really want it to be meaningful. It might sound cheesy but I really put my heart out there. It’s my feelings or at least how I want to feel.
“You are the AC to my Summer.
You are the heater to my Winter.
You are the blossoms to my Spring.
You are the foliages to my Fall.
You make things easier when it’s hard.
You make it better when it actually sucks.
Without you, it’s not the same;
You color my life and make it beautiful.
Thank you. I love you.”
I use all four seasons to imply that he is present throughout the year.
I use these four seasons also to emphasize that I am meaningful by myself, and even without him. I want to be able to stand on my own feet. I don’t want my worth or my existence determined by outside forces, not even him, no matter how much I love him. How do you see this in the poem? Well, summer is still summer even without AC, winter is still winter even without heater, spring is still spring even without the blossoms, and fall will remain fall even without the foliages. And even without them, there will always be good and nice things we can enjoy and appreciate. And that’s how I want my life to be, even in the fangirling world.
BUT, it doesn’t mean their presence is meaningless. No. Quite on the contrary, they actually mean a lot. Amidst the heat of the summer, we’ll always be happy to be cooled down by the AC, no? When it gets too cold in the Winter, the heater is like a lifesaver. The blossoms are what makes Spring more beautiful, and so are the foliages in the fall. So, mmm, what I want to say is: I am fine, I want to be fine, without him, but his existence and presence in my life surely makes it much much much better 🙂
I should emphasize that I am fine on my own also because I don’t want to burden him too much. He exists not only for me. He exists for others too, and especially for himself. Hence, I want him to not worry too much about me ‘cause I can definitely take care of myself, and I have a lot of things to make me happy, but yes, I still want him ‘cause he makes me happier and feel a lot better, and which is why I thank him 🙂
I’m not sure how he’s going to interpret it, though. I’m not sure if he’ll read it at all. Haha But if he decides to read it, I’m sure he’s smart enough to understand my English, well if he seriously gives it a try 😁🙈 He’s the genius in the group, after all. My pride, the love of my life, Chinen Yuri.
PS: I’m not sure if somehow he’ll say something about it, or if other fans finally find me because of this, but, well, again, I’m hiding some info about me in the fangirling world because I choose to not reveal it, not because I’m ashamed of it. In fact, I’m proud, so that’s fine. But, aaaah, I really hope my feelings reach him: Chinen Yuri-sama. ❤🥰😊
PPS: I’ve got more cheesy lines, so perhaps I’ll just write it here 😀
He is: The stars to my night sky, the petals to my roses, the fragrance to my perfumes, the oxygen to my air…